Tuesday, January 12, 2010

I've Gotta Feeling...

And it's a not a good one.  Actually, I think it could accurately be described as sheer terror.  Or possibly extreme anxiety.  Or maybe a combination of the two.  In other words, I'm really really really really really effin' nervous about our wedding.  I'm now just under the 5-month mark and it's beginning to hit home that this thing is really going to happen.

Part of the problem with having a long (15-month) engagement is that for most of the planning, the wedding seems impossibly far off.  13 months away? No problem.  10 months out? Easy peasy, can't wait.  Even being 8, 7 and 6 months away didn't freak me out.  But now? I'm officially freaked out, wacked out, tired out and just plain nervous!

There's so many things to be worried about, I'm even worrying that I'm not worrying about the right things.  What if there's some other glaring detail that I've completely over-looked that will come back to haunt me?

Do you want to hear the litany of concerns running through my head at a faster, more urgent pace than ever before? Ok, here it goes... I'm worried it will pour cats and dogs and everyone will get mud on their shoes and the dance floor will be flooded.  I'm worried that the food will be cold, that there won't be enough or that people will spill while serving themselves family-style.  I'm worried nobody will be able to come and all my planning will have been for naught.  I'm worried that everyone will come and I'll have rent a bigger tent, dance floor, etc.  I'm worried my hair will fall flat, my make-up will disappear and I'll be a shiny, sweaty mess for all the photos.  I'm worried about the timeline of the day, making sure everyone gets to the right place at the right time and how to fit everyone into the available bed and breakfasts in the area. I'm worried that no one will dance or have fun and the whole even will be a big, fat fail.  I'm worried that a bird will poop on my head during the ceremony, that my palms will be too sweaty when I greet everyone and that I'll get a huge zit on the tip of my nose the day before...Ok, the last three are slight (and only slight) exaggerations but you get the picture...

Basically, it comes down to this: Mr TM's parent's and mine have given us an incredibly generous budget to work with.  But in the words of Spiderman, "With great power comes great responsibility."  I feel a lot of pressure to plan this amazing wedding based on the budget I've been given and various expectations of both families.  And sometimes (ok, lately, a friggin lot of the time) I just get really damn nervous!

I know I'm not alone in this feelings, is anyone else found themselves in a freak-out, panic moment lately??


  1. I'm about eight months out now and I think I know what you're referring too. I had a pretty long engagement myself (19 months?) and now that time is slowly creeping up on me I'm all "OMG - SOOOO much to do!".

    Don't sweat it though - I'm sure your wedding will be fantastic!!

  2. You made me laugh...out loud. nervous laughter of course...because I share so many of those lil nightmares with you.

    we checked the farmer's almanac and it IS going to rain. F. But - it will still be a wonderfully glorious day...in the rain.

    As for bird poop - your girls will help you clean it off in the bathroom. :-) (I got bird shat on my FIRST DAY OF HIGH SCHOOL FRESHMAN YEAR and I managed to recover. And that is NOT an easy thing to recover from at that age)

    Just breathe.

  3. I had a freak out moment last week...we too are just under the 5 month mark and suddenly I feel like I'm WAY behind and SO MUCH still needs to be done!! We have been engaged for over a year now so I guess i just assumed I had ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD to plan and get stuff done...turns out that just made me lazy :)

    Don't fret...things will turn out wonderfully!!

  4. I know exactly what you mean! Since we have the same wedding date, I'm in exactly the same spot. And last night I just realized after I go back to school tomorrow, I won't be back in town again until Valentine's Day weekend, which is actually less than 4 months from the wedding! Eeeek. We had a 15-month engagement too, so I can totally relate. I just have to keep telling myself that everything will turn out fine!

  5. Thank you all for the reassurance!!! Means a lot to me to hear :)

  6. I had a freak out before I went dress shopping a major I am too fat, I will never find anything that will ever look right and I only have 10 months to get this right and if I go with a designer I only have 4 months to lose weight and to find the most perfect dress to ever exist. Then I tried on Sophia (the sex goddess maker) and all was well in the world. It is definitely okay to stress out. You can't control the weather, but you can definitely make a checklist and work with the professionals that you have hired to go over everything and make sure they have a plan b for their plan b.

    ***beauty, love, frugality

  7. Oh, and random side note! I was reading a wedding magazine the other day (I don't read them much anymore, but I was getting my nails done and happened to see this!) and the bride did a trail mix buffet instead of a candy buffet! It instantly made me think of you. That would be so fun and would fit into the 'feel' of your wedding perfectly!

  8. Oh no! I'm only at the engagement party stage and I'm already planting all of those seeds of worry in my head! Although I'm sure it will be absolutely perfect! :)

  9. Breathe! It will be okay. No matter what happens you will remember this day. Not every detail because it will go by in the blink of an eye. Just remember that no matter what at the end of the day you will be married to the man of your dreams. Take time during your day to step back and make a memory. A snap shot of a moment in the time that you will remember forever.

    PS. I hear it good luck if a bird poops on you. I don't wish it on you though.

  10. LauraLou, that is such a cool idea, thanks for telling me, I just might try to do it!

  11. I felt that way a few months ago, so much so in fact, that I had to take a planning hiatus. I was going nutso. I'm in a good spot right now with about 8 months go!